By Sasha Katz
If you think about all of the times in your life that you were down, crushed, broken or hopeless, there is always a strain, grain or thread of impossibility. Even when you force your hurt or beat up self to be practical, problem solving or option seeking, impossibility eventually strikes your potential plan and you are back to square one. Like a deer in headlights, you stop when you come against impossibility. There are circumstances in this life where change feels impossible.
We all have been there. Impossibility comes in the form of lack of funds. When I was heading back to law school for year two, my grandma wasn’t able to help me out anymore. I had no ideas and no funds to cover the deficiency. I was already working and my loans were maxed. I had no more human capacity to make up the difference. I sat with the financial aid counselor (who I had no idea was a believer) and she said that a man had left a trust fund to my school for scenarios like mine and she had the authority to give me what I needed for the year. And, then she said – – Your Father knows what you need. God blew out what I viewed as impossibility.
Impossibility comes in the form of relationships. It was not that long ago that I determined that my husband and I would not see eye to eye on tithing to our church. We had been fighting about it for more than a year. My prayers seemed useless because our battle just heightened each time we went to war on the issue. I think it was in the middle of one of our furious matches on the issue, that I was sitting at the dining room table, and a resolution occurred to me. I probably yelled the resolution instead of suggested it the way the Holy Spirit had gently put it into my mind. But, in any case, my husband yelled back, FINE (or whatever form his agreement came in). Resolved. Years of fighting pretty much resolved in one Holy Spirit moment.
Impossibility comes in the form of loss. I didn’t know this pain until my dad died just before Christmas of 2009. We spent some time talking about legacy at our couples bible study this week. It brought me right back to my dad and my memories of losing him. Right now, I see his clear blues eyes looking into my eyes of the same color, not just on the day he walked home to the Lord, but on every intimate occasion throughout my life. There were moments during the first year after his arrival to heaven that stopping the radical tears and pain seemed to be an impossibility. His blue eyes and the healing of the loss of them took the gentle hand of the Lord washing over me, the wise counsel of my mom and time.
I don’t know exactly what impossibility looks like for you. I have impossibility even right now. It stops us in our tracks and pushes back the mind and heart as you search for ways around and through impossibility. I also don’t know what your break through looks like. I don’t know what mine looks like either. However, I have learned that it is beyond me to know how it is that the Lord plans to make possible what is humanly impossible. And, really, it doesn’t matter how many times in a life that we face impossibility – – when it appears, it is real.
We certainly have the option to believe that He does impossible things rather than the hopeless alternative. We have the option to let those close to us pray for us and minister to us. We have the alternative to talk to the God of impossible things. And, even if our prayer seems feeble, useless or powerless, if our prayers sound insufficient, small minded or limited, they are worthwhile and received by the God who planned from the beginning of time to take you to the other side of impossible.