In a world that regularly points to self improvement, I have been thinking about disassembly. When we take a look at ourselves, it’s easy to look for the traits that we consider weaknesses. Those things about ourselves that we think look like a C- or D on paper. In the midst of comparison and achievement, short comings are easy to focus on. But, lately, I’ve been toying with the idea that some of those things I put on the D list may just be a part of who I am.
I’ve shared before that I’m not a small talk person. I will probably bore you at a cocktail party, but definitely not over coffee or tea. Take me to a big room of networkers passing business cards and I may take a long personal call in the lobby. I can do small groups or talk from a stage or podium, but just don’t put me in a sea of people and expect success. For a long time, I took this as a weakness or lack of determination or skill. I don’t anymore. God made me this way. I can’t small talk and that’s okay.
The fact of the matter is that God made you and He likes who you are. Go ahead and be her. Go ahead and trash self improvement this week. Disassemble. Inside of you, there is lurking a gift that is being masked by a weakness. Throw off your opinion of your weakness. See right through the hype of self improvement and seek that part of your self that is just waiting to bless your own soul and others.