New Thing

This is a piggy back to two blogs back in April of this year – – Busy and Father Time Laughs.  Last April, God showed me that He didn’t ask me to be busy.  I felt challenged to work on my state of mind that was constantly racing time and tasks.  This truth was a personal revelation to me.  It also was a relief for the time clock, or rather time bomb, ticking in my mind.

I really have enjoyed the last six months.  The initial changes I set up for myself and the process of moving in a new direction felt like they made sense.  In an odd way, email was one of the practical ways I began changing.  On the one hand, I spent about an hour a day working on my inbox.  This was absolutely necessary as I needed to rule out the majority of the possibility that I missed a task, reply or important invitation.  So much of my work depends on timeliness and good practice.  The potential unknown (at work) is a source of stress or worry for me . . . streaming into my personal life.  Now that my email is current, deleting, filing and assigning tasks daily has made a great difference in my life.

On the other hand, I also used email to keep me in the head space I was seeking.  I chose a few devotionals or calls to prayer that are emailed to me daily.  I committed to reading them within a short time after they came in.  That means that two or three times a day, I am thinking about spiritual things and others.  When I read, I don’t browse or speed read.  I read slowly, take in the spiritual thought and answer any study questions or calls to action right then.  As I allow the process, my mind is slowing down.  I am able to give more in the way of quality and substance to the tasks that are part of my entire day – –  I think because of this practice.

As the mind slows down.  Something happens.  It has been sort of an evolution for me.  When you slow down, more is able to come into your mind.  For me, it has been more in the way of God’s calling.  I think He has more deeply carved out in me a care and concern for His causes and for His calling globally.

Six months ago, I didn’t have room in my mind or time in my life to step any deeper into some things.  Now I can see that there is a wide open door to walk through.  That doesn’t happen without God.  I thank Him that He is endless, patient, kind and King.  I thank Him that when we let Him in to try something new, He does just that.

FF Oct 20A

 

 

Busy

It’s not easy being busy.  Always needing one more minute which really translates to 45 minutes.  With my kids, that means they wait while I rush and then I rush them because I waited till the very last moment to do whatever it is we were scheduled  to do.  With work, that means I move from one project to the next in a frenzy to get it all done.  Often spending my hours with the nagging feeling that I have not done so much of what I need to. With God, that means I’m always off to somewhere taking Him with me.  Rather than He taking me with Him. It’s not easy being busy.

My mind has become so busy that it sometimes takes hours on Saturday morning to come down from the week.  I somewhat mindlessly pin and read NY Times articles until my mind is calm. There are weeknights when I know my mind has not settled down until I read the Word and go to bed.  My mind doesn’t stop until it turns off for sleep and then starts again with the sunrise. My mind and I are spending a lot of time together.  Trouble is that, other than me and my mind,  there are three other people in my house, a loving God that I serve and a whole world out there for adventure.

In light of the tough events our church recently has hardshipped through, our pastor asked us to search our hearts for any secrets, hidden sin.  As I sought Him for His wisdom, He showed me that He didn’t ask me to be busy.  He has given me many blessings and gifts and talents, but He did not plan for me to be busy in the way that I am. It has been just over a week since the Lord showed this to me. It has been on my mind, but I have been rather unsure about how to be unbusy. How to have a state of mind that is not racing time and tasks.

I am thinking about a volume dial where you can turn the noise down. It feels good on the inside of me to think about turning down the busy in my life. I have the sense that turning down the speed in my mind will lend itself to turning down the busy in my life. It makes sense to make the change in my mind and spirit. The internal flow will influence the outward choices I make in my life.

Our bible study was recently asked to write a list of personal priorities on a lavender sheet of paper. I haven’t completed it yet. But I have been carrying that lavender sheet of paper since Monday. Sort of like I have been carrying the thought of unbusy for several days. The truth is that regular reflection is part of the believers life. I am going to reflect on unbusy. What will you reflect upon?

What It Means To Me To Be Unbusy
1. Be ready to spend time with my kids, not busy
2. Have time to sit down to dinner a few nights a week, just to talk and laugh
3. Stop working every breathing moment I have and take time to be unbusy
4. Let God know that my heart is soft and moldable and doesn’t have to be busy
5. Take all the unbusy and go on an adventure with God